 Today, we waited. I’m the opposite of good and patient when it comes to waiting for big things. For anything, really. I get twitchy and itchy, and my mind goes to terrible places. I can’t help but visualize each far-off, not-even-a-percent-of-a-percent likely to happen “what-if” scenarios. Then, as if I control fate with my thoughts, […]  Age is relative in that we never feel all that different from the way we did years ago. We’re older, wiser, but still us-us. Sometimes, we catch a glimpse of ourselves in a car window and don’t recognize the face reflected. We wonder who we are, but when we lean in super-close to the mirror […]
 The first day back to school means a fresh start, sharp pencils, and the promise of leaves crunching underfoot in current 80 degree weather. It’s saying goodbye to last year and to babies who are no longer babies. It’s happiness, and grief for moments gone by. It’s wondering whether summer vacation was memorable enough. The […]
 There’s a photo floating around social media and in the news. It’s a “First Day of School” photo, but not like any I’ve shared. It’s not like the one I’ll likely share next week of my own kid heading back to school. This photo’s of a little girl sitting on the floor with a slice […]
 Now and again, each of us is a hero. It’s in small, in-the-moment acts, like paying for a person behind us in line. It’s in big more-planned things, like volunteering at places that break our hearts because it’s not fair that privilege and circumstance are the only things that stand between us being the volunteer […]
 There are places on earth and moments in time when you know you’re part of everything. You feel life as it is now, as it was, as it will always be. You’re connected to everything, and everyone. The good and the bad. You’re both small and vast, and think of everybody and see them being […]
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by Kristi Campbell
Lizzi - So so glad to hear that all went well and you managed to tame all the bad thoughts. So glad T’s doing ok now.August 30, 2019 – 2:42 pm
Kristi Campbell - OMG the bad thoughts are the absolute worst but yeah, I’m super glad it went well too. We go for another x-ray Tuesday because he can feel (and hear – gross) clicking in the bones there but I called today and was patched into the surgeon, which was awesome and affirming, and also, another x-ray will be good. Thank you, Sweets.August 31, 2019 – 11:51 pm
Kenya - How were the last two nights? I’ll text you. I’m the same way with, “Don’t.” It’s equivalent to having a foot cramp. You can work through it on your own but if someone else looks at your foot cramp then that makes it so much worse. I’m also as irrational (but I think it’s normal) as you are with thinking the worst. Recently when my mom and dad were here, mom and I were going to run some errands. Jay’s truck was being serviced and it was ready so we were taking him to get his truck. Daddy said, “I’ll ride” and Christopher said he’d stay at the house. So I had anxiety all the way to the dealership that everyone he loved and would take care of him if something happened to ONE of us, we’re all in one vehicle. Once we got there I said to myself, we’re not doing that again. Then my other self says to myself, “You’re so ridiculous.” I’m so glad that Tucker is on the mend and I hope that first night wasn’t too bad and that the worst is behind him.August 31, 2019 – 8:04 am
Kristi Campbell - OMG to the foot cramp and I think maybe all moms think the worst when it comes to all the bad things that happen. I mean, we *know* people that had the worst happen right? And that makes it real, I guess. Ugh. Also OMG to your car story – I feel like that all the time, but since Tucker isn’t as old as Christopher, it’s more like “we’re on the same plane, so at least it’ll happen to all of us…” Unless of course, it doesn’t and UGH. I definitely get the anxiety on the way to your vehicle. I’m glad everybody was ok and I’d think the same “not doing this again,” and also the “you’re so ridiculous” but really, there’s a reason all the government people travel separately, right??? RIGHT.August 31, 2019 – 11:55 pm
Kenya - P.S. Hurricane Dorian may or may not come this way but this morning I looked to see if any of the tallest trees could fall and reach our roof if we stayed here through whatever we get. We are normal aren’t we?August 31, 2019 – 8:05 am
Kristi Campbell - OMG I SO GET THAT. Sorry for all caps. Not yelling, yelling, just OMG hurricane and trees and of course. We’re totally normal. I’m impressed you thought about the tallest trees. Because duh, they might do whatever. But I mean, they won’t. I hope. Ugh. I get it. Hang in there and huge hopes and prayers y’all are not affected at all by Dorian. Or any of them.August 31, 2019 – 11:57 pm
Kenya - P.S.S. In the voice of Forrest Gump – “And for no particular reason she felt like CRY-ing.”
Hope I made you laughAugust 31, 2019 – 8:07 am
Kristi Campbell - LOLOL you did, my friend. Also <3 me some Forrest. Sometimes, we just feel like CRY-ing. ;) xoxoxo huge.August 31, 2019 – 11:58 pm
Emily - As you know, I’ve been there, watching my son being wheeled in to an OR. So, I really understand everything you felt…so glad that it’s over and the surgery went so well. I wish for Tucker a speedy and easy recovery! xoSeptember 1, 2019 – 11:49 am
Kristi Campbell - I do know, and yours was so terrifying. I guess they all are, but we go to the mom mode, or just worry. I’m so so so glad little dude is okay now. And thank you!!! xoxoxoSeptember 2, 2019 – 10:10 pm
Debi - The head of anesthesiology at the children’s hospital where my daughter had all 17 of her procedures under general anesthesia actually wrote a book about it called “Counting Backwards.” I heard him talk about it on the radio, and he said there is something called “waiting room paralysis,” where people in the waiting room while their loved ones are having surgery feel like they cannot leave or something bad will happen. I totally know that feeling. I even had a favorite seat in the waiting room, where I could see both doors. The waiting is the WORST. You know I feel your pain in that, and your relief in having him home where you can pamper him with Smashburger and bad TV and all kinds of love. So glad the worst has passed, Kristi!September 3, 2019 – 12:23 pm
Kristi Campbell - Thanks so much, Debi! It helps to know that others experience the waiting room paralysis. It’s like keeping your hand on their baby heads in the grocery store so nobody will snatch them while you’re choosing the best cucumbers. Yup, I did that and in so many ways, still do. It’s a scary world. I’m so sorry you had to go through SO MANY surgery experiences with your sweet girl. It’s too much (especially with what you know now). And yes, it’s been huge relief. They did replace his cast AGAIN (!) on Tuesday because he could feel clicking and they figured it was the tendon in his thumb. So five casts in 10 days or something. His classmates (and me and his dad) signed it again though, and are hoping it’s the final one for the next few weeks until he transfers to a removable one (4 weeks less in the cast is nothing to sneeze at either, but still, the “going under” was for sure the scariest part. Thanks so much.September 5, 2019 – 7:41 pm
Christine Carter - Oh, mama, I know those fears and tears! I know those ‘worst-case scenarios’ that roll through your mind! I prayed so much for that sweet boy and for you during all of this hard hard stuff going on. I’m SO glad the surgery went well and he is healing!
Tucker is such a strong boy and you are an even stronger mom. Praying the rest of the school year has NO MAJOR CRISES!September 12, 2019 – 8:41 am